Everyday I play a sad game called in the future when all's well

Last night I went to see Morrissey at the Hollywood Palladium. I stood front row but very much off to the side, which means, I got a great view without the discomforts of the massive crowd pushing behind. I had times to freak out, times to sing along, and also moments where I just leaned against the railing and stared at Morrissey in pure bliss. It was actually my first time seeing him. Once in a blue moon, I feel like this is one of the happiest days of my life. My first two fashion shows, I felt that way. My first time at LA fashion week, I felt that way. Last night, I felt that way. Not many people really know me, but I've always felt that I am very much like Mister Morrissey. I've always felt a connection in my soul.

Don't look back in anger

Here's to new beginnings and exciting changes! My summer's been filled with lots of stress and anxiety, but now I think everything is starting to fall into place. Now I can enjoy what is left of my summer. The weather in Los Angeles doesn't feel like summer. We have marine layer, gloomy skies in the mornings, then it's perfectly sunny with cool breezes in the afternoon. Last summer was crazy fun for me. But I guess those things just never last. This year has been more calm, quiet, and realistic. And reality is sometimes uncomfortable for such a dreamer like me.

All my little plans and schemes, lost like some forgotten dreams

After watching Science of Sleep, I went to Target and bought a pack of Play-Doh. I remembered how much fun it was when I was a kid. It was fun to think of ways to create things out of this weirdly pleasant smell. Say for instance, rolling it out into a very long piece, then swirling it on top of a flat circle piece to make a cup. I wish I could've studied sculpting, but alas, I'd have no room for it. So I'm sticking to mini play-doh creations for now, that all go in this clear collection box. The last few weeks have been incredibly intense and mentally draining and lacking inspiration. I haven't had ANY time to work on new drawings or illustrations. Right now, I guess my responsibilites as an adult has caught up to me. I just don't have time or the energy to dream about and make things.

Therefore, Youngest Indie is on hiatus.

Do you wanna dance and hold my hand?

June was filled with lots of dancing and fun for me. I took many photos, but here is just a small taste of it. Hope you enjoy!

The Fratellis @ Avalon



Suicide Club @ El Rey



Bloodcat Love @ El Rey



The Horrors @ El Rey (yes, my third time seeing them)

Will you still love me tomorrow

Yay for summer! I don't know what it is about girl group songs, but they're perfect for summer. I've always been a fan of doo wop. When CDs first came out, I remember going to the record shop with my dad, and he let me pick out one. I chose The Shirelles. Speaking of girl bands, here are some you should check out: The Pipettes, Rocket, The Grates, and the Plasticsines. For some weird reason, "Breakup Season" by Rocket is number one on my itunes most played list. That tells you a lot, doesn't it? It's a simple girly song. As for some oldies, what about "He's A Rebel" by the Crystals! or "Sweet Talking Guy" by the Chiffons!

He walks away, the sun goes down

Other people's lives seem more interesting 'cuz they ain't mine

I don't smoke, but I do love coffee.

Give 'em the boot!

Last year, I went to see Rancid for the very first time at the Fonda. It was super fun. We dressed up in major punk rock attire. We went all out. I wore black skinny jeans, red suspenders, black Rancid tee, skull print neckerchief, studded/zipper hardware belt, with my black chucks. It was a lot of fun. It was exciting to see them open with Ruby Soho and go right into Roots Radical. Such a moment. Did a lot of dancing and jumping around. Good times, fo sho!

Gravity's Rainbow

I know it's been a while. At times, I sat at my studio desk and tried to work on an illustration to post on this blog. I wasn't feeling it. I didn't feel like drawing, then I realized how wrong and meaningless it would be if I were to illustrate something just for the sake of posting new material on my blog. I'm feeling uninspired lately. Or yet, overwhelmed to the point of disfunction.

Either way, I realized I have tons of material that just waste away in my computer, stuck in my sketch pads, or in my portfolio. So, here's another new rave girl that's been waiting for her Youngest Indie debut. Go listen to some dance rock and go crazy! It's the weekend!!!

She'll be saying use me

I think maybe some time in the future I'd like to live in London for a few years. Work for Gareth Pugh or Ben Sherman. I love how stylish the British are. I think the scene there is so exciting. Topshop is great. Most of my fav. bands right now are British or Scottish. (The Horrors, Razorlight, Klaxons, Arctic Monkeys, The Fratellis, The View) I also love British magazines. Lula, Pop, I-D, Let Them Eat Cake. Some day, one day, maybe....

(I drew Lily Donaldson and Agyness Deyn when I had some down time at work a few weeks ago.)

We accept you, one of us

Is there anything in this world that is cooler than the Ramones? Yes, I love them. And I watch Rock and Roll High School almost every weekend.

You won't know me 'til you need me

What a week it's been! Not only are we super busy at work now, but I went out three times this week! And I made it through! It's really hard to go out especially when you're working full time in such a crazy industry, but you just gotta take care of yourself. Monday: The Feeling and Rooney at the Roxy. Dan Gillespie Sells of The Feeling had great charisma and energy. Not to mention, he was wearing electric blue dress shoes with red socks. Brownie points please. Then on Wednesday AND Thursday, we went to see JET (one of my fav bands ever) at the Troubadour! If you can tell by now, I'm a small venue fan. JET puts on amazing live shows. They're one of those "you-just-don't-know-til-you've-seen-them-live" bands. I first saw them at the HOB in 2004. I've seen them a total of six times now. Troubadour shows were unbelievable. Nic is great. I love JET.... *sigh*

Cam of JET @ Troubadour 4/26/07

Mark of JET @ Troubadour 4/25/07

JET @ Troubadour 4/26/07

The Feeling @ Roxy 4/23/07

Rooney @ Roxy 4/23/07

I found my teenage heartaches

Here right next door to a dream
This movie ends tomorrow
I'll need a new movie queen

Je veux te voir

Way back in the days when I was in college, we took a class trip to the American Apparel headquarters. Now, this was before American Apparel took over the world. When I went, they were doing mostly licensed products. And now, they're everywhere. I think it's really cool what they stand for. Sweatshop-free clothing. Anyways, don't you love this girl? She's so fierce! This one's dedicated to none other than AA, their thigh-high socks, sexy shorts, basic jerseys, and their terry headband.

Oh, and about the title. I like that song by Yelle. I first heard about her a while ago on Fred Flare. I like dance-able songs. Plus, she rocks polos with shorts with bright tights, leg warmers, and heels. Awesome French pop.

I know why he lied to me

Better late than never. So I first heard about Liz McGrath when I read about her in the newest issue of Swindle. She's so rad and beyond inspiring to me. She does everything and she's great at it. I even love her band Miss Derringer. All my life, people have told me not to be a Jill of all trades, master of none. And I used to understand and try to focus on one thing. That is why I chose fashion design and just went that route. Even if I had dreams of going to art school to try everything (sculptures, illustration, animation, fashion). But yesterday, when someone said that to me again, I realized, I don't know what the f**** that means anymore. I can't help it if I want to do everything. But I think fear is the only thing holding me back. Many times, I sit there and think, I'm not that talented.

Yesterday was easy. Happiness came and went.

Razorlight at El Rey in Los Angeles March 9, 2007.

Give you my confidence. All my faith in life.
Don't stand me up. Don't let me down.
I need you tonight.

Why you such a lonely child?

It's not real. Can't last forever.

Surely not to live in pain and fear

Love is all you need. All you need is love.

**Update: I know I've been a little M.I.A here. I've been so busy. And looks like I will be busy for a while. However, I have managed to get some things ready for my blog, which IS very special to me. Because it's mine. I can put up whatever I want. This week I will be updating frequently. Thanks for checking out my blog! Here's a little factoid: I cried at the theater watching John Lennon vs. US.

She said my boy it's dagger, oh yeah

A few weeks ago, I wanted to go out dancing, but I didn't because, well, my new year's resolution. Trying to spend less money and save more. I haven't been dancing in a while and I'm picky about where I go dance. Hahaha... :) Well, now I'm a little over it I guess. Anyways, the second best thing just might be to dress outrageously and dance around in your room, while blasting Chelsea Dagger.

I want you to know that I'm beautiful

That is a line from a song by Under the Influence of Giants. It was in June 2005 at the Viper Room where I first saw this band. Samantha Ronson was on first. Kirsten Dunst and Jake Gyllenhaal came together to see her. Kimberly Stewart was hanging out with her friends. Then, The Like played their set. Then it was UTIOG. I stood front row and danced. Their songs automatically make you dance. This was pre-David, and when there was a chic and a another bassist in the lineup. I saw them again few months later, and they announced that they got signed by Island Def Jam. I saw them again at the Key Club early last year. I really liked them the instant I heard them and I still remember watching them at the Roxy, and thinking to myself, "these guys are gonna be huge!" I like the Viper Room. I only have fun memories of that place.

Anyways, my favorite fashion item of the moment is the cardigan dress. I love menswear to begin with. You can just find a nice men's cardigan, so it becomes an oversized dress on you. Wear with opaque tights and a sequin beret. Splurge on nice ones by J.Lindeberg, Fred Perry, Lacoste, or just find something cheap at Target.